Great Minds are Young

A calm yet strong personality, a sharp mind, and a great heart; that’s 15-year-old Egyptian Salma Ahmad, one of my special students who never ceased to exceed my expectations, leaving a big mark in my heart and mind!

Tonight, I would like to share with you one of Salma’s lovely creations; a poem she wrote this summer about “Human Nature”

Enjoy!

Human nature

I marvel how nature could ever find space

For so many strange contrasts in one human face

There’s thought and no thought, and there’s paleness and bloom

And bustle and sluggishness, pleasure and gloom.

There’s weakness, and strength both redundant and vain;

Such strength as, if ever affliction and pain

Could pierce through a temper that’s soft to disease,

Would be rational peace—a philosopher’s ease.

There’s indifference, alike when he fails or succeeds,

And full attention ten times as much as there are needs;

Pride where there’s no envy, there’s so much of joy;

And mildness, and spirit both forward and coy.

There’s freedom, and sometimes a diffident stare

Of shame scarcely seeming to know that she’s there,

There’s virtue, the title it surely may claim,

Yet wants heaven to know what is to be worthy the name.

This picture from nature may seem to depart,

Yet Man would at once run away with your heart;

And I for five centuries right gladly would be

Such an odd, such a kind happy creature as he.

There are times when I feel hurtfully in love with everything and everyone around me. Well, yes, despite being such a beautiful and peaceful feeling,  its intensity may break you into pieces. It becomes such a strong and overwhelming feeling that you start losing a good part of your freedom and spontaneity.

These painful but sweet strong emotions may be mixed blessings.

They give you unprecedented, somehow supernatural, powers when your beloved ones are in need or threatened. You may work like never before, fight and challenge the whole world, support and defend wholeheartedly and to the extreme. You love and give unconditionally, sacrifice and dedicate your life with ultimate compassion and devotion. You never give up, never get tired, never feel down. You’re always energetic and enthusiastic and in a lot of instances aggressively supportive despite all the exhaustion or challenges you may be experiencing but not consciously admitting…

Sweet…

However, those same strong emotions may weaken you to the extreme and strip you off your strong will and determination. Your fear soars and your adventurous soul drowns. A lot of times, you feel helpless and submissive, anxious and feeble. Loss and separation are your worst enemies; over-protection and emotional instability are your best friends.

Painful…

Despite their pain and because of their sweetness those deep and strong emotions are so beautiful and healthy should they be balanced and well celebrated. It’s so divine to fiercely protect, support and fight for your loved ones and be super strong for them but at the same time surrender to that beautiful feeling and allow yourself some sweet unharmful obsession over them.

It’s my birthday and I have to make a wish…
I will close my eyes for a moment and wish from the bottom of my heart that time would go much slower… And No, it’s not a typical female wish… I am not afraid to grow older and have some wrinkles or lose my glow (if I had one anyway).

I want time to go slower for me to better enjoy and savor every moment with my kids and loved ones.

I need time to go slower to laugh, love, pray, give, share, apologize, cherish and appreciate more and more.

I want time to go slower to make up for every lost or missed opportunity, to dream more and achieve a lot more…

I wish time would go slower for me because I simply need more time to do my way all what I do…

Negative Vibes, by Elaine Clayton (Illuminara)

There are times where everything around you seems so wrong, everything you do seems so imperfect, everyone you meet seems so indifferent, everything you eat seems so tasteless and everything you do seems so pointless! All you can spread and receive is nothing but negative vibes!

And those times may be incredibly lengthy…

Surrender and submission to those negative vibes and to that uncomfortable painful feeling may lead to a chain of darkness, desperation and maybe depression, generating a dark unpleasant vicious circle; a deep black hole…

Full consciousness of the current situation, with an effort to pin point the root of that particularly dark state, be it conscious or unconscious, may help anyone rise fast, shaking those vibes away and filling his/her good spirit with some positive energy and some good vibes.

That’s not a practical applicable recipe with tangible ingredients you may say. Well, it could be! But I think by just starting with admitting your case, and having full consciousness of your current situation, knowing every reason that led to it, you immediately overpower your misery, and move to a next more positive level!

If you are unable to see the tiny spot of light at the end of your black hole, just close your eyes, imagine one and head straight to it, and you shall break your dark vicious circle, color your black hole and start spreading and receiving nothing but positive vibes!

Disagreements, misjudgments and misunderstandings are, unfortunately, the bread and butter of a lot of people around me, if not around the world! Why? The answer is very simple and I bet most people know it, even those who fight regularly. It’s looking at others through our own eyes; looking at things and judging them based on our own perceptions, education, culture, traditions, etc. That’s normal you may say. Well, if ‘normal’ means ‘what most people do’, then yes, it would be normal. But my perception of ‘normal’ is completely different. ‘Normal’ is NOT ‘usual’, nor is it ‘frequent’ or ‘common’. ‘Normal’ shouldn’t be an expected pattern according to a certain mass who don’t invest a single effort in making things right.

Accepting others exactly the way they are, understanding their attitude and behavior based on their background and not ours, and seeing people through their own eyes rather than through our own, seem to be an unreachable dream, an unrealistic ‘norm’!

Weird!!

We all nag about being misunderstood and misjudged, but we rarely understand others and almost always misjudge them! We always justify our behavior and attitude, even if wrong and unfair, expecting others to be considerate and to look through us to excuse and understand us, but we rarely do the same for others.

What’s worse is that when you attempt to understand others, justify their behavior, refrain from judging them, and keep being open, positive, and peaceful, you are immediately taken for a lily-livered lunatic!

Amazing!

Well, after giving it a thought, I guess being a lily-livered lunatic and a silly kind-hearted person wouldn’t hurt at all. You may save yourself a lot of frustration, anger, aggression, and eventually disagreements and fights! Most importantly, you will sure lead a happier, more peaceful, serene and graceful life… It’s worth it, don’t you think?

Being positive when facing a hard time or a problem of any kind is the number one goal some people (including me) may invest a lot of effort to achieve, in order to gain enough power and confidence to overcome hard situations. It is true that by nature people tend to victimize themselves and nag, nag and nag about almost everything, but keeping high hopes, remaining positive and wearing a smile (even if fake) seem to be the only way out!

I have absolutely no problem with that! I’ve done it many times and I can still do it!

But there always comes another major problem! People around you who, driven by unquestionable genuine love and care, would invest every effort they’ve got to ‘morally’ support you. They keep on trivializing the situation, telling you how you should overcome the hard time in meticulous details, reminding you how positive you should be, how strong you are, how inevitable your situation was, and how sure they are that you can do it, and blah blah blah yadi yadi yada till you start feeling pity for yourself and truly believe that you’re in a deep ***t!

Don’t get me wrong! Those people are much needed and appreciated. No one can rise fast without the support of his/her loved ones. If you felt left alone and not understood you’d feel more depressed and lacking energy to fight and defeat all obstacles…

But, despite the fact that women usually love and prefer moral support and appreciate ‘words’ a lot, and despite the fact that I am a woman whose emotions overwhelm her reason at many instances, I feel that it’s always better done than said. Highlighting a problem and boosting morale is good, but being truly there to help you lift the weight is way better and much more helpful.

Knowing that people understand you and feel sad and worried about you is nice and makes you feel loved and cared for, but doesn’t really help. What truly helps is to actually see hands, lots of them, around you lifting all the weight with you… That’s when, and only when, your fake smile would turn to a genuine smile, strengthening your will to keep positive and overcome all what’s bothering you.

What do you think?

Writing becomes a passionate addiction when you wholeheartedly practice it daily, a habit when you do it regularly, a sweet remedy if done occasionally, a homework if asked to be done, a skill if rarely practiced and finally a nostalgia when left behind!

After being one of my passionate addictions for quite a good time, I degraded writing to the position of “sweet remedy” and recourse I run to in most of my emotional states from desperate to heavenly joyful… The reason why I degraded it? Well, I “pretended” that I had no more time to write on a daily basis, but couldn’t help but running to it when in need to express an emotion whatsoever, for it had always been the best if not the only way I could freely and boldly express my feelings.

Once again the poor thing has been degraded and demotivated!!! It has become a nostalgia for a good month now! Why?! I don’t really have a good argument. It’s like when two people are in love but they decide to take a break for no reason whatsoever. They miss each other, they hurt, they feel nostalgic, yet they decide not to go back together! Silly, isn’t it??!!! All it takes is that one of them picks up the phone and calls the other or just shows up at the doorstep and the (irrational silly) agony shall end!

I shall pick up a pencil now!!

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