Great Minds are Young

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It’s been almost 3 long long years since I updated this blog! I, however, have been visiting it very frequently, reading all posts over and over again, remembering the great minds I had the chance to meet, teach, inspire and empower (hoping they still remember me), and fighting a growing desire to reactivate it.

In truth, I stopped writing here on purpose, and sometimes even thought of deactivating my blog, because its purpose existed no more. It was meant to celebrate the talents and skills of the great young minds I encountered when I was a teacher and lost contact with when I started my own business. It might not seem like a valid convincing reason, but this blog was never about me, it has always been about them… Without their input, their talents, their minds, and their creativity it will struggle to survive defeating its own purpose.

But despite all that, I was never able to shut it down! The emotional connection I have with it is particularly tremendous. When I’m here I feel like skimming through an old family album filled with great memories and beautiful people. Every time I talk about it or read its content I feel nostalgic, proud, happy but also sad. I miss it a lot, I miss the passion that drove me to start it, I miss the strong belief I had in the young minds, I miss the enthusiasm and creativity of those I taught and inspired me. I miss the great sense of achievement and pride I had when succeeding in making someone believe in his or her talent and potential, and eventually draw, snap, paint, write or develop something… I miss me 5 years ago.

Tonight, like a lot of other late nights at the office, I needed to disconnect from the corporate world, so I logged in here and started reading my favorite posts and visiting my students’ work. But unlike any other night, I felt an irresistible urge to write again and revive this space that has always been a safe peaceful haven to me. I felt like writing to all those I believed in and all those I will believe in. I felt like writing for myself, for them, and for nobody at all…

Tonight, I decided that I will keep visiting, start writing again and reconnect to an old me that, despite its big resemblance to the current me, fills me with a lot of peace, energy, determination and passion. All very much needed at the moment 😉

It feels great to be back… Good night, and see you soon!

There are times when I feel hurtfully in love with everything and everyone around me. Well, yes, despite being such a beautiful and peaceful feeling,  its intensity may break you into pieces. It becomes such a strong and overwhelming feeling that you start losing a good part of your freedom and spontaneity.

These painful but sweet strong emotions may be mixed blessings.

They give you unprecedented, somehow supernatural, powers when your beloved ones are in need or threatened. You may work like never before, fight and challenge the whole world, support and defend wholeheartedly and to the extreme. You love and give unconditionally, sacrifice and dedicate your life with ultimate compassion and devotion. You never give up, never get tired, never feel down. You’re always energetic and enthusiastic and in a lot of instances aggressively supportive despite all the exhaustion or challenges you may be experiencing but not consciously admitting…

Sweet…

However, those same strong emotions may weaken you to the extreme and strip you off your strong will and determination. Your fear soars and your adventurous soul drowns. A lot of times, you feel helpless and submissive, anxious and feeble. Loss and separation are your worst enemies; over-protection and emotional instability are your best friends.

Painful…

Despite their pain and because of their sweetness those deep and strong emotions are so beautiful and healthy should they be balanced and well celebrated. It’s so divine to fiercely protect, support and fight for your loved ones and be super strong for them but at the same time surrender to that beautiful feeling and allow yourself some sweet unharmful obsession over them.

Imagine that, when you close your eyes and gaze into this vast dark space, you’re looking into your mind. Imagine that your memories, people, feelings, fears, and perhaps your future are addresses that you can visit. Try it, and wander around; it feels great! And see for yourself that when you look hard enough you will find a little special something that I call your goody bag. In this goody bag you will find your talent and a great sense of knowing what is important to you. In that goody bag you may find your happiness, so look hard, very hard. Keep doing it even if it takes you years because your happiness is worth it.

Enjoy that trip!

I’ve always argued that packing is the easiest part of any trip. Actually, I’ve never minded packing; it has always been fast, fun, and exciting; it’s unpacking that I’ve hated most!

Not this time!

I’m actually packing to move back to my home country, which should be something extremely happy and exciting to do! However, the mixed feelings I’m having are taking over the excitement and leaving me with complete numbness and confusion. I’m leaving home to go home! I’m leaving work to go work. I’m leaving friends to meet friends. I’m leaving stability to live stability… True, but…

This time I find packing painful. This time I find packing extremely slow and hard. This time I can’t wait to Unpack!! It’s not because I’m eager to leave, not at all. It’s just because I’m eager to stop waiting and thinking of unknowns. It’s just because I’m eager to skip painful goodbyes and hard separations. It’s just because I know that the moment I reach home all will be ok, all will be fine… And it’s just because I  know that the moment I reach home there will be no more waiting, and no more goodbyes…

I’m getting ready to leave home in order to move back home. I’m getting ready to wave goodbye to a good part of me in order to hug a better part of me! I’m getting ready!!!

After her beautiful painting, Saba Tavakoli would like to share with us today a story of a feeling that she experienced and believes a lot of us did too. Saba also put together a picture that best describes that feeling, but she says that it is not so much about the photo, but more about the story behind it.

Enjoy!

“Today I heard news that I probably should’ve been happy about, but it left my stomach feeling heavy and my head feeling sick.

You know that kind of rage that stirs inside you and you fight back little stinging tears, and your hands shake as your mind screams that you’re not happy about it. It is actually terrible news to you, and it makes you angry. And it isn’t because of the direct situation at all; it is people’s reaction to it and you wish people “could’ve been that way to you too”. But they’re not, and instead they say anything to put you down and knock you back. And what do they gain from it; nothing but a false sense of security. No matter how many birthday cards you send them, no matter how many sentimental gifts you buy them or how many meals you cook for them, you will never be good enough. And I’m reaching the point where I’m giving up and it feels so good to be free and start letting go of someone who hurts my feelings so much. My main point really is just letting other people who feel this way know that they are not alone either. It’s about spreading hope and happiness to people who need it. Just cheer up and I quote “Don’t make those a priority, if to them you are just an option.””


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